Where to begin...

I've been on quite a journey the last, well I'd say 24 years but more specifically the last 3 years.  

Growing up and being from a busy place called, Long Island, I was a very busy girl.  My parents are wonderful, and had opened many doors for me to trial and participate in activities including basketball, dancing, baseball and then softball, volleyball, and many travel teams outside of school.  God was a part of my growing up, going to mass every Sunday when my siblings and I were young, making my sacraments, going to religion classes, and even praying each night.  

However, my faith and religion seemed to take the "back burner" to all other aspects of my life.  

I became involved with friends who well, weren't the best influences on me or my decisions.  Not blaming anyone else for decisions I made, but saying I got caught up in a crowd that was not healthy for my body, my mind, or my spirit.

This is a really brief story of my "history" or previous years of my life but I want to focus more on where I am today. 


So, basically...... I went away to college, about 6 hours from my parents' house and my hometown.  I was again very busy and active playing division I softball and quickly meeting a guy I would date for 2.5 years.  Again, not all decisions I made were the healthiest, for me as a woman and a person, nor for my body, mind or spirit. 


My senior year of college which was also my first year of graduate school, was the year I say that I hit a brick wall and realized I was a bit of a "lost soul."  I was still a "happy" and outgoing person who loved people and loved life, however I remember feeling as though, "I was praying to a wall." 


Well this is where I say my life began to change!


I had and still have a strong Christian friend who was able to spark conversation, interest, healing, prayer and curiosity in my heart at this time.  I also had a Catholic friend who would encourage God in my life although we were not that close of friends at the time. These two very beautiful and special woman helped the Lord capture my heart, and I did not even know it!

At this point in my life, although I was in graduate school for physical therapy, just finished my final year playing softball and was our team captain, and now single, I felt very... lost.  My sense of purpose in life was a little confusing.  My self worth, well, I didn't know where to find it, or better yet, didn't realize I was trying to find it in all the wrong places! aka.... in relationships with guys, in my pride as a competitive student, in my body image, more physical attributes than my inner self and in my heart. 


So yes, I was indecisive with almost all decisions, I was very self-seeking in my actions (example, self pleasure in relationships, nights out and having too much to drink), I ran to many other people for advice and would wind up more confused about things I had to make a decision on.  

Although I yes, was very grounded and trustworthy as a friend, many friends would come to me for advice, help, just to listen, I have been, and by the grace of God, hope to continue to always be a person someone can rely on.  However, my inner being has changed, my heart and mind. 

At this point in my life, I was learning more about God, and often found myself crying tears of happiness or for tears of healing.  Through it all, I had a strong faithful community to show me the love of the Lord.  At the time, I was "clueless" on what that even meant, and I think I laughed the first time or two that I experienced a group praying and praising God out loud.  

What a beautiful start this was....... there is a lot of detail left out, but I have to put the computer down for a little bit.  If it will help you to understand more about where I was and where I am now, to go into more detail, please feel free to ask questions!!  I am a living witness of God's healing, and I can't wait to share it with you. 


For now, blessings be upon your life. 
Enjoy your evening!!




With the love of Jesus, yours truly,
~ Erin